``The beat of my heart has long since stopped thanks to you.``
WELCOME TO MY PAGE ENTIRELY DEDICATED TO MY LOVE FOR AZURE FORSAKEN. if you dont know who azure is, this guy (he/they) is a killer in hit roblox asymmetrical horror game Forsaken! (think dead by daylight but vaguely old roblox themed.)
i absolutely ADORE this guy. if you dont know his lore he's basically an ex-member of a cult revolving around the idea of a second life beyond death who ended up sacrificed by his partner Two Time. A lonely soul likely ostracized by his fellow cult members for not being born into it and inevitably betrayed by the one they grew close to.. who reasonably was pissed at them when he was brought back to life later and given free reign to kill them again and again and again. very very healthy, i know! why cope with your anger properly when you could take it out on a fellow victim of manipulation for eternity?
i could really be here all day yapping about his past because its a LOTTTT but if you'd like lore about the spawn cult (if you dont know about it) thennn click here for the website related to it :) anndd b4 i forget, check out azure's theme for 1v1-ing two time!! -->
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And The Seraphim Wept
i'm going to warn you now; this page sucks and ive been procrastinating writing this for months because i. dont know what to say. but i want to talk about how much this stupid fictional character means to me. like i should not reasonably be this attached to this unstable unloved little fella but i am. i just feel really like....similar.
like yeah. purple they who struggles with self-worth, anger, the thought of being unwanted, who copes via escapism and botany ....... can't say i DONT relate now can i? if anyone rummaged around inside my head i think they'd just find azure
he is a tragedy in every sense of the word someone who wanted nothing but to be loved time and time again only to be thrown out and something about that resonates with me . i think they're a very relatable character if you've found yourself hurt before... angry and beginning to believe perhaps you're just not worth it to anybody and perhaps they're right
and yet if i think about azure before the betrayal--aspen, their name before--it feels like . a hopeful story, really..... aspen ran from home from a rather neglectful father apparently, and found himself in the spawn cult and met two time... perhaps he was always a skeptic about the church but at least he'd found an outcast like them to get along with and maybe get out of there one day with.
"I will admit that for the first time you gave me that dream.
And I thought we were happy. I ignored the monsters to be with you."
you can argue perhaps that doesnt matter at all when they ended up betraying him in the end anyway but it's nice to think about . for a moment azure really did feel better, i'd bet. company, a friend, something different, whatever. it must've felt like a dream
i think that's a scenario to look forward to ... a nice thought when it feels hopeless and like one day you'll be left behind ....
hehehee you fool you just listened to me subtly rambling about how cool friends are and how i love my friends because i'm literally aspen and i love my friend s hi friends hello. the people that are in fact always there to make me happy when i feel my worst and like perhaps one day they will grow out of me. but they are here now regardless and things will be okay
sigh click here to go home, i'm done being the yapper
